I’ve commented over these last months about change coming. And it’s one thing to sense it, to recognize it, to know it’s on the wind… it is quite another to begin watching it unfold.
These last few months have been full of change. Change of all shapes and sizes. Change of all colors and fragrances. Literally. #jewelryjoke #candlejoke I’ve attempted to write about it several times, but with it still swirling and churning, it becomes difficult to write commentary on it.
But after the smoke clears… there is a kind of peace. And a space to reflect.
The transition is not complete. Not by a long shot. A proverbial calm before a resurgence of the storm…
But it’s a storm that is putting us in direct alignment with where we need to be.
It’s a sobering moment when you look back on the sequence of events that got you to where you are. My husband and I call them HIMYM moments. In the television show How I Met Your Mother, there are episodes where they trace the line of causality from a seemingly insignificant moment to a life-defining one. And if you were to really reflect on it, you’d find that that kind of thing happens quite a bit. Of course, when you get one after another, you can feel like you’re heading into a tale-spin… you may even crash. But you recover. Inevitably, you recover.
In the last few months I have readjusted who I am, where I stand, what I want, and what’s important to me. I have been reminded of what matters. I have witnessed the hand of the Universe nudging me one way or another. I have been offered opportunities that were nearly what I wanted, but were not in alignment with the direction that I’m heading. I’ve had to choose what was more important. I’ve been faced with the shattering of a long-held image. I have been reminded of the blessing of health. Of mortality. I’ve lost companions I thought would be in my life forever, I’ve become more deeply connected with others, and mulled over the phenomenon of people holding so tightly to their beliefs - even if they are absolutely false - that they are willing to sacrifice everything simply for the sake of continuing to believe that they’re right. Or to fuel their hate. Or to give their otherwise dull life some kind of entertainment. Or to perpetuate drama. Or maybe just so they simply have something to complain about. (Like, get over it, y’all. There are more important things in life than that chip on your shoulder…)
But I realize that if all of the things that happened hadn’t happened - if those relationships stayed where they were, if I hadn’t been ill for half the summer, if certain choices and sacrifices hadn’t been made, if gifts hadn’t been received… then I would be in a completely different place. And to be honest, I really like where I’m at right now.
I know that things are changing. I know that by this time next year, I’m going to be in such a completely different place in my life that it’ll be hard to believe that I’m the same person. But what the past few months have taught me is that I really do walk my talk. I post a lot. I offer a lot of advice and guidance in my multiple-lines of work. It’s so easy to become a hypocrite, to “Do as I say, not as I do.” But I’ve realized that I do just like you do. I have hard times. They sting. Badly. But if they are a necessary part of life, I process them as best as I can, seek out help from quality friends and advisers when I can’t, and ultimately release them for my highest good. Because my 35+ years of experience have taught me that doing so really does make room for something better. Whether it be deep and loyal friendships, new homes, new family, new career paths, a massive show of love and support, realized dreams… validation. So I keep releasing. And I keep dreaming. I keep setting goals. I keep busting my ass to manifest the shit out of them. And ya know what? It’s happening. Right now. As I type these very words, things are shifting to make it all happen.
So… why am I bothering to write about it? And why does this post seem to be sticking when the rest of my attempts over the last month and a half have ended with CTRL+A, DELETE?
Because I want to remind you that you don’t have to be perfect. Life doesn’t have to be perfect. You can struggle. You can react to that struggle. It is your right to do so. But don’t lose hope. Don’t ever lose hope. Believe that the best is yet to come. Believe that this Universe has your back and is capable of so many miracles. Believe that you are worth it. That you can do it. That no matter what your eyes see at this current moment, it is not the end. The storm will pass, the debris will settle, and you will be in a position to take those pieces and rebuild the life of your dreams.
You can do it.
I believe in you.
💖🕯🕊
Jump in, let's go
Lay back, enjoy the show
Everybody gets high, everybody gets low
These are the days when anything goes
Every day is a winding road
I get a little bit closer
Every day is a faded sign
I get a little bit closer to feeling fine…
